maths

just finished another jc's pure maths paper. i estimate that i'd have gotten about ~70 there. but it was a hard slog.

maths is utter, utter humiliation. the maths parts of my brain have withered away, and my brain's been filled up with lots of other pointless, useless crap. even the easiest integration and graphs stuff stump me. memories of past (i.e. primary school) maths glory just get in the way of recognising that i fundamentally suck at maths. never mind elegant/short solutions, i can't even get things right the conventional way. i know this just isn't right; maths should be a breeze...

shit. that was pure wanksting.